I have not been able to avoid .. last night I was meditating and I came to write a sprig to mind ...
And today I decide to pass it, because I miss writing stuff. The truth.
I already notice that it's no big thing, and something bad enough shortie .. but hey, I hang up.
more things I have thought, because now Brian is going to disappear .. jiji, Ted will leave panties and is going to roll in New York .. but that for the next capital, ajajajaajajajajaja.
are you going to kill me, I hope you do not already heavy fic and this traveling, painting, pose, etc. .. .. rare talks Besosssssssss.
What absurd jealousy. But jealousy arising from the imagination of a lover .. embroider the absurd and ridiculous.
Brian begins to feel sick of everything, not to understand his own actions.
What are you doing there?.
does not sleep all night, looks to the blonde lying beside him, sleeping beauty with pale skin and painfully desired.
stroked her hair, Justin breathing softly with her eyes closed and Brian again feel like going there, not to leave, never to return, to end all at once.
Each with his life.
As should be three years ago.
But it is not able to move from there, can only kiss her neck and take your warm hand on cock of Justin. This groan, shake, wake up and they lose sleep together.
The next morning Brian gets up early, shower and prepare breakfast almost before Justin awake. Then, after breakfast called Ted. This prompted
what time is your flight to Pittsburgh and Brian says it is not until the evening. Ted
asks in a tone of casual and cool:
- Are you okay?. Do not you feel bad or anything? "No relapse of yours ..?.
And Brian says with the same tone of voice: "I'm fine
, querido.Hasta morning.
Then Brian and Justin go shopping. Buy enough to eat and newspapers on Sunday more bottles of wine and napkins. Several types
stop to Justin on the street, congratulate him for his work, he recognized from the interviews and reviews of art. Justin is very polite and attentive to them. Brian
look at it from the very remoteness that he creates between them. She smiles at him so animated, so warm and perfect.
a great day yesterday, with a gentle wind and clouds directs traffic in front of the sun, and when they return they sit on the balcony in the sun in a couple of folding chairs. Do not talk much. Justin
making tea cream flavor and smell and taste are delicious in the air warmed by the faint rays of sunlight. Barely
no movement in the city and All cranes are silent. It's like being in a strange city, my miles of Pittsburgh.
- It's strange, I never imagined New York as quiet.
- Sunday. Here people live very stressed, have only 8 days holiday a year. Is not it amazing?.
- Well .. as you look. Ah, the work exhausting but is a damn blessing.
- Brian, you have to go .. tonight.
- I booked the flight.
-Anúlalo.
- I will not.
- Why do not you come with me to other sites?.
- Oh, no.
- Oh, yes.
- Ted count on me. I have a lot of work. I am a businessman, blond guy. In many large businesses.
- Let him tell, is accounting. Fuck work.
- Nice. What is impractical, how absurd.
- Sorry .. I am afraid. And I hate it. Damn Brian.
- what?. "The silence of New York?. No wonder, must be rare so calmly.
- The same as you. Where does this leave us?. What the hell are we doing?.
- What?. Can not you be even a minute without asking questions. Let it be, simply.
- Better not ask more. All this talk of a mundane and trivial level until there is no feeling.
- Do not think I have U.S. What you think of your own?.
- That I have fear. Lately I turn your body just will not hear your own opinion.
- Now that analyzes art thou ..
- Have shaken Bri. Are you cold?.
- at all, thanks.
eat on the roof, some cold chicken, cheese, grapes and wine. They drink too much wine. Do not get drunk, but the feeling of being reckless, relaxed, cheerful, happy and carefree is foreign to them.
Everything amuses them, laugh and love with their eyes. And the sun is warm and sweet wine.
- Let me paint you.
- Again?. But if you have not finished my piso.Olvídalo box, it is torture to be naked without doing anything.
- Let me start another different picture here. Qiue paint you different. So, there's a reason that I return to you and you coming back to me .. Complete both boxes.
- Go fuck reason.
- Come Bri.
- Oh, no.
- Oh, yeah. What's wrong?.
- others may see it when completed. Maybe Peter, maybe people want to know .. go figure. Well, it would be good way of Buddha ..
- Shut up. I will not be seen. I promise to give it to you if you want. And you can break it. Because in your drawer will not go .. Cajones.No
"Enough.
- Why not?. Please.
- Do not you get tired of paint?. Sure you have models young and beautiful bodies.
- No. Never. I could paint you up with your eyes closed. Every corner, every curve, every inch of your body.
- Then you do not need to pose.
- I do not need. I wish.
Brian stares at Justin, kisses his lips and smiles. Brian believes lose your head, perhaps because of the wine.
- blond guy Look, the sun is hiding and the light is not as good in an hour .- .- Prepare Brian gets up your stuff, right?. Justin
stumbles upon exiting. Maybe so
paint better, slightly drunk and inflamed with desire.
Brian tries to think he is different. Want to be different, like a picture different. Embalms this time.
Food, wine, love, sex, sun and no thinking.
not want to think. But the blond guy constantly forces him to do so. Yes Love
What about love?. Brian sorry, but do not know what to do with it.
If one could remain so, separating the upper crust brain, putting it on a shelf and letting all the physical drives are brought to the right place.
Some people, like Brian, and spend his life.
and make a real mess.
Brian knows that he always had control of everything, but he was always out of control.
"There was no adequate means to avoid had to be neither too civilized or too wild?. It was agony
control everything, to know the name of everything. Go
brain, leave me alone.
Asique when Justin called, his face taut and his eyes heavy with wine and says it is ready, trying not to stumble Brian enters.
He sits on the stool and Justin takes the clothes.
"Great. This is .. great.
- Brian, trying to control it a little.
- Yeah, right .. of course ..
Le wraps the waist and legs with a crimson cloth, kisses him and gives him a warm glass of wine to drink. Brian
Justin takes a sip and start drawing.
But not right.
Her hand shakes. Maybe they are so five minutes. Justin
scribbled lines, laughs alone without knowing why. Want
mourn. But never before him.
is about to move Brian's neck. This gives the glass to Justin to drink, drink and hold it with his hand so insecure that pours wine Brian's chest. Brian
smiles, lets you lean back and the glass and the wine spilled all over, down the arms and hands as soft Brian blood.
- Oh, Brian. Look, it seems you've taken purple hearts .- laughs Justin, meaningless.
- Let's leave Justin.
After that, as I knew from the beginning, the painting is finished. That
night Brian leaves a phone message telling Ted that has changed their plans. Not
pittsburgh again that day.
- His studio is next to a river, you know Theodore?. Yes, a river with boats to lejos.Confío you, you will make a great campaign. I heed your words. I take a break. Tell Michael that ... do not say anything.